Have you ever met someone who you just ‘zing’ with?
Someone who does these stupid things just to make you feel happy?
A person whose existence you are thankful for every single day of your life.
Well, if you have met someone like this, then you know how heart wrenching it is to lose them. The one who is no less than a nucleus keeping the atom of your life intact, but once they go, they take life as you know it along with them. Losing a lifeline isn’t easy right? What do you do afterwards? How do you overcome the big, massive void that your life has become? How do you pull yourself out of the emptiness created with their departure? You can’t. It’s just not humanly possible. Unless you meet a terrible accident and lose your memory too!
Life goes on, that’s true. But you are never the same. That poor heart of your still pumps and beats but you feel a pang, an aching with every breath you take. Can you imagine life becoming a living hell for you? When every new day is a constant struggle for you; a futile yet tedious effort of acting normal, of pretending to be ‘just fine’. Because you actually cannot talk to anyone about the loss you endured or the chaos that it has left you in. It’s just sheer pain and agony and you.
It shouldn’t have to be like this, right? Life’s not ideal or utterly perfect I know, but does it have to be entirely opposite; that is, totally miserable? So that you are left sulking and suffering to roam the earth like dead? No, it should definitely not be like this. I refuse to live in a world like this that offers no empathy or compassion. I refuse to be dragged down a pit of loneliness that engulfs my soul and unleashes cruel monsters on my heart. I refuse to be abandoned. I refuse to be unloved. I refuse.